Why There are No Periods in My Life -- Always Updated!

Happy Birthday to Me!

What this Life means to Me.

Sunday, 4-29-12: I was prepared to just hold space, quietly, today, all my men at home and their energy usually overcomes mine so i move peacefully and quietly around like a cat being the only girl outta of 5 in the house, looking forward to going to church in a little bit, done drank me a couple cups of coffee so i'm fired up, but then I got a text and in a flash things changed for me, learned my sweet friend Minister Cheryl's dad passed to the other side and he was a sweet, handsome 80 something year old, cute as can be, man, i told him how cute i thought he was and he smiled, got a little swagger in his walk and let me know he was something else back in the day, the only thing i'm sad about is that he didn't get any of the tall man's, friend chicken, the tall man remember is my husband, he all of '6 4', yeah he's tall but u know what when i put on my heels i'm 6 feet myself, think i need to be tall today with all these men, gonna where me some heels to church, anyway, Minister Cheryl's lawd can she preach, i been down there at her church in Long Beach just a shoutn and Minister Cheryl's dad was just a lookin and smilin at me and her, he loved him some Lord, he was so proud of her so this morning what i want you to know is when i don't have periods don't stop to put a period after my name, i love folks while they here, tell them how cute they are, and smile and shout, been missin me some Minister Cheryl and hadn't figured out a way to connect to give and receive some love in her space, we all need to stop thinkin so much, throw those periods away, stop thinkin about ourselves and what we do and what we sell and who we think we suppose to be and just love and support other folks, stop holding back, judging folks and 'sayin' she think she that, he think he this, why they do that like this, why didn't she say this, we need to just love and support folks, its free, it's good, and God likes it when we support others and give away our love, give away some love today, now don't u go gettin mad think i'm tellin u what to do, cause in this post i'm talkin to myself and reminding myself what God wants me to do

Wednesday, 4-18-12:  this life without periods started on my birthday cause i was feeling so grateful with love in my heart and didn't won't to hold back the words or love with periods between you and me, so i said to myself, Birthday wishes and sweet delicious cake and a man so tall I have to look up to him and boys so sweet they melt in my arms and puppies and puppies that thank God the tall man takes a care of and A Mama – oh how I miss her on our special day – who taught me how to chase a dream and to dream and dream and dream and always keep Hope in my heart cause that’s all we should do in this life is to have hope and dream about wonderful sweet things, thank you Dr. Georgia Mae for chasing those dreams and hopping from Mountain to Mountain Top and swinging me right along with you, I am so grateful and I ain’t got tired yet of writing these here words and thinking of some sweet, sweet things to say as I dream and dream and dream about how wonderful this world really is and how much sweeter it could be and how grateful I am to still occupy space in it, hope my space is okay, cause it’s my BD and I wouldn’t won’t to take up space that you suppose to occupy, my friend, my facebook friends, my tweet, tweet friends, my in-my face friends, my church friends, my sorority friends, my my my it’s a wonderful life when I take just a sweet moment and think on things you see and see what else on my BD, that’s all, silly ole meJ, luv u, oooooh we how could I stop without mentioning all the blue skies I’ve seen, and the butterflies are so pretty,  and the oceans that roar up and down the coast in this beautiful state of California where I occupy space, hope my space is ok, wanna just be happy and light and fun on my BD you see, cause I turned 16, hahaha, and life ain’t been no period, it's been a series of commas, trying to separate things but failing, cause we’re all one big loving family whether we understand this or not, one big happy family occupying God’s world you see, I’m gonna add to this for quite some time so check back with me, just thought about the beautiful clouds i see when I'm flying above in those beautiful skies, and about how skin color don't really mean a thing and i wish everyone would get over itand start loving one another, happy BD to me skip jump skip jump skip jump i go luv u be back in a while i'm back you see cause yesterday was beauty beautiful pretty you see i looked at flowers as i walked i exercised i got a massage and a pedicure my toes and feet r so purdy you should see them but then something funny happen to me actually it ain't so funny its just the world we live in when i was feeling my highest in the day had looked at all them flowers here come a BIG STORM with 2 legs, 2 feet, a nose, 2 ears and mouth that she wasn't using properly spewed out some mean-spirited stuff but i held my light space and just kept on dancing started to stop and talk about it but thats what the BIG  STORM OF CLOUDS want for you to stop what u doing in your loving space and come and tend to them sometimes i do but sometimes i don't yesterday i didn't cause i was celebrating sweet 16 or at least that's the way my feet felt but it's really sweet 51 or 52 or 53 dunno really cause it don't matter cause it sweet 16 so all i want to say this morning life tried to make me stop and use some periods but i've decided now i have hadn't a few minutes ago i'm gonna keep on flowing cause aint no separation between me and you and them we one big happy family us green and blue and white and black and yellow and all we need to do is keep loving keep hope in our hearts and keep smiling and loving even when a BIG DARK STORM CLOUD visits just keep on loving that'll drive it away and hold your space quietly and surrender the CLOUD to God i love you don't know when it happen and why but i love me some you i'm back thought i was done but this the other thing i had some champagne yesterday the bubbly expensive kind and there was some jazz and my favorite sounds playing in the background and my nostrils was filled with the smell of the Tall Man's stuff he was grilling and the puppies were running around and all i could do was shake my head it felt so good cause i was so grateful and so happy to be sleeping in my bed had been traveling and i don't really like being away from home too much the thought is always good but the reality ain't so good sweet sweet home thank you for reading this post kick out the periods there's no separation in this life flow flow flow i love you 

4-19-12Life is sweet we have God's grace and favor covering us go to sleep nighty nighty love u

4-20-12  swear the periods keep hopping in my pocket they don't won't to be layed down they like jiggling around in my pocket and i like when i don't have to stop and get in my head and just say what's in my heart love is in my heart today especially for gay people who are in the closet been thinking about how much i miss them wish they had the courage to come out i miss them my best friend in highschool was gay Dennis and he taught me some things before he died i miss him but he wasn't in nobody's closet he was out out out out out before there was even an out and then lord and behold my first room mate in college came out a few years after we finished now she was the the prettiest thing you ever wanna see and in fact at my wedding i got mad at the camera man cause he was following her around instead of me she was so pretty and when we used to go out in college all the mens would come after her and not me, how you think that made me feel, so i was so happy when she told me she a lesbian, one less woman for me to compete against, haha, but yeah i love me some Dennis and Angie, rest in peace Dennis, Angie, talk to you this weekend, love you girl, that's all i have left at this stage of life, love

4-21-12 and a few specks in my eyes, lord i ain' t lived a perfect life somebody told me there were 500+ things inthe bible that we're suppose to do and 500+ things in the bible that we ain't suppose to do and i don't think there's an end to a good sermon i love me some jesus and a good sermon and throw in a choir and i just have to shout Stand up and Shine my light, Have Hope, Overcome, Use God's power, and Testify that's what i'm doing when i write, testifying about the goodness of the good lord and i'm going to collect my thoughts and write about Dennis my out out out Gay best friend who died of...no one ever said it was sort of hush hush but i believe he died of complications of HIV anyway we talked so much before he died and i started writing, boy could we talk used to have these 8 to 10 hour conversations when i got my boys to sleep my husband was working nights so i could sit up and talk with dennis about everything, he's the reason i started writing really when i think back on it, the reason my character Emma Jean, an attorney, had a down low husband,now this was back in the early 90s, folks weren't too happy with me i don't think, ON EDGE, was the name of the book and it's raw and edgy and the important publishing folks said it was in the literary genre, there was something to it but they were scared:), i know what was to it, that Dennis was what was too it, he visited me tonight i guess because i been talkin about him, woke me up out of a cold sleep, my mama too, and then,they both said it's ok to feel what i feel and i realized as much as i loved dennis and miss him I never cried, never cried,i think i'm gonna have to stop and think on this and cry, i tell you but don't you say nothing, i cried in my bed while he was visiting and i'm crying right now cause he was so special, president of my high school senior class had the white folks and the black folks skipping and hopping and then he went down to atl and got him some degrees from morehouse, join the kappa, which was wrong, i'm a Delta and my brothers are Omegas, Dennis was soooooooo tall, probably '6,6' i love tall men that's why i married one, dennis met my husband and he approved, we both was lookin at him funny tryin to figure out if he was ok lmbo, lord, i'm gonna go back to sleep, it's in the middle of the night where i am, been reading my bible, John 8:7 Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." that's what Jesus said regarding the adulteress woman and the Pharisee's desire to punish her, i'm gonna remember that always, it's the first thing i remember when folks start talkin about sins in the bible and this and that, i remember John8:7, then go look in the mirror at myself, haha, usually don't have much to say after looking in the mirror, nighty night, love you, this world is complicated thats why we have to pray and just love love love, love u

4-24-12 my friend said she could never write without periods because her English teacher would turn over in his grave, and my friend is an excellent writer has a couple of sitcom ideas being considered and she has a special power, anyway she said her English teacher would turn over in his grave and I said if he's dead, who cares, i was just laughing and  laughing because i think folks care what other folks think about what their doing way too much, i know i have that disease from time-to-time, but most times i say "what you think of me is none of my business," and boy do i mean that when i say it, want to put a period or exclamation mark after that but i'm not gonna stop cause i'm so busy shouldn't be on here and i still am feeling love, in fact yesterday, i saw an old college buddy, Todd, that i hadn 't seen in very long time and when he came through the doors of the restaurant something welled up inside of me and before i knew it i was just crying and crying and it was a sorta of nice LA restuarant, and i was driving there through the hills of Beverly Glen, through Beverly Hills, i was thinking God sho does love this place to make it so dog gone pretty, 35 years i've been here and thinkin the same ole thing and i've been around the world pretty much, but love LA and you and hope your week is startin off just right and you're feelin his anointing, which is nothing more than recognizing his power and guidance in your life, but i believe it can be activated, kicked up a notch by certain people and situations and things, u got it i'm sure so gone and do what you suppose to do, luv u, don't pay me know mind, i'm jus sharing that's all, not trying to preach or prophesize or think i'm special, i just like to share what i know about the goodness of the lord, and i can still have a good time while i do it, another friend who was at dinner with us last night was lookin at me sorta of strange out of one eye like i changed, especially when i ordered my mother's favorite drink, jack daniels and 7up, yep i ordered it, i'm ole enuf to drink what i wanna drink when i wanna drink it, done raised those 3 boys, kept my tall man straight for 35 years, God is saying go on, girl, and i had on this shawl like my mama Dr Georgia Mae would wear:) and anyway my friend, Nanzoola woman, she's a bad, shut yo mouth, defense attorney, was lookin at me outta of one eye, and i said ain't nothing changed cause i'm always talkin about the goodness of the lord, my bigmama gave me that soon as i startin singin "this little light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine" ain't nothing ever gonna change, i'm gonna be me, talk about how Good he is, lean my head back, kick my leg up, and SHOUT, that will never change cause when no body is here with me,God always is, luv u

4-26-12: Recently I asked my preacher if he thought God has separate lines for different sins or if there was a heirachy of sins, likestealing is a 1, adultery a 3, back-biting a 2, gossiping a 6, refusing to answer yo door when yo neighbor knocks, a 5, he just looked at me and said "I don't know or maybe he said no" i don't remember which but he could see i was serious and wanted an answer so i trusted what he said and this morning i woke up wondering if people think they can take stuff with them to the other side, like all that wisdom, them degrees, the positions, the furniture, all that money they got in the bank, u know what i mean, i've heard quite a few good preachers say u can't take it with you, that they ain't never seen a U haul truck following behind a hertz, that makes me laugh big time and so i think i'm gonna empty my self of everything - all my smiles, the wisdom, the love, i'm offering it, giving it all way, ready to start giving away stuff to, i don't need much, got some clothes i need to just give away and gonna try my hand at raising money too and give it all away, homeless people really money, there's alot of people who really need money, more than i do, it will be fun to give away stuff, that will be fun.

Sunday, 4-29-12: I was prepared to just hold space, quietly, today, all my men at home and their energy usually overcomes mine so i move peacefully and quietly around like a cat being the only girl outta of 5 in the house, looking forward to going to church in a little bit, done drank me a couple cups of coffee so i'm fired up, but then I got a text and in a flash things changed for me, learned my sweet friend Minister Cheryl's dad passed to the other side and he was a sweet, handsome 80 something year old, cute as can be, man, i told him how cute i thought he was and he smiled, got a little swagger in his walk and let me know he was something else back in the day, the only thing i'm sad about is that he didn't get any of the tall man's, friend chicken, the tall man remember is my husband, he all of '6 4', yeah he's tall but u know what when i put on my heels i'm 6 feet myself, think i need to be tall today with all these men, gonna where me some heels to church, anyway, Minister Cheryl's lawd can she preach, i been down there at her church in Long Beach just a shoutn and Minister Cheryl's dad was just a lookin and smilin at me and her, he loved him some Lord, he was so proud of her so this morning what i want you to know is when i don't have periods don't stop to put a period after my name, i love folks while they here, tell them how cute they are, and smile and shout, been missin me some Minister Cheryl and hadn't figured out a way to connect to give and receive some love in her space, we all need to stop thinkin so much, throw those periods away, stop thinkin about ourselves and what we do and what we sell and who we think we suppose to be and just love and support other folks, stop holding back, judging folks and 'sayin' she think she that, he think he this, why they do that like this, why didn't she say this, we need to just love and support folks, its free, it's good, and God likes it when we support others and give away our love, give away some love today